I will forever be your Peter Pan

Art exchange with Leti !! Check out her adorable Taohan (with an appearance by Sehun) here~

this was supposed to be tinkerbell!lu, but i got distracted and ended up with this greek fairy(??)/princess luhan OTL

(also i’ll be keeping this small picture format for now, we’ll see how it works out!)

anbaachan:

manapia:

an emotionally draining drawing session, to say the least ;;;;;

Tears

It’s June. Jongin hates June. He hates June because of what it does to his boyfriend, Luhan. It’s been three years now and he wishes the depression and the tears would go away. But like clockwork, even if Jongin busts his ass to distract him, he knows. He knows with every fiber of his being. His mind won’t let him forget. His heart won’t let him forget. It makes Jongin sick to his stomach.

He knows Luhan loves him. He knows it by the smile in his eyes that shine brighter than the smile on his face. He feels it in every gentle caress, every doting pat, and every scratch down his back. He hears it with every whimper, whine, bellow, and laugh of his name. And Jongin loves him back. And he’s happy. They are happy. But despite the happiness and the love, he knows he cannot compete with the love that Luhan and Minseok once had.

It’s been three years since Minseok passed away in that car accident. It’s been three years since Jongin watched Luhan’s world get turned upside down. Three years since he saw the love of his life crumble into a million pieces. Three years since he vowed that he’d stay by Luhan’s side. But he never knew it’d be this hard. He never knew he’d have to compete with Minseok from the grave. Sure, it was getting better. Easier even. Luhan was distracted easier and for longer. But the Luhan he went to bed with a few days ago was not the Luhan he woke up to.

Jongin leaned against the car, watching from a distance as Luhan meticulously brushed rubbish and dirt off Minseok’s gravestone. He watched as Luhan placed a bouquet of fresh flowers in front of the large marble stone and then light some incense. Jongin could handle this. He could handle driving Luhan to the cemetery. He could handle buy expensive flowers that he knew the grounds keepers would throw away after a day or two. He could handle Luhan telling him to wait by the car as he did these things… But it didn’t mean he liked it. It didn’t mean his heart didn’t ache, knowing that Luhan still loved the dead man more than he’d ever love him.

Jongin watched as Luhan’s shoulders shook with tell-tale signs of his crying and suddenly he no longer could clearly see. The colors of the clear blue sky and the lush green grass blurred together as he fought back his tears. He placed a hand over his beating heart, clutching at his hoodie in a pathetic attempt to calm the pain. The pain escalated, making Jongin gasp, when the sound of Luhan’s broken sobs and wails reached his ears. He could hold back no more. Tears overflowed as he stared off into the distance. And Jongin can’t help but wonder how he is supposed to comfort a man whose heart doesn’t truly belong to him.

okay gonna try this new method of posting small versions of my drawing scans.  tell me if you like this better??

an emotionally draining drawing session, to say the least ;;;;;

Anon 1 and Anon 4: I actually don’t have much of a preference when it comes to paper, actually.  I’ve been sticking with the Strathmore 400 series for the most part, but some of my late drawings have been done on Canson drawing paper, which is 70lb and has medium tooth and is really cheap!  I use these for my quick drawings.  And Anon 1 — i’ll try to do a shading tutorial when I have time!! Just give me a nudge or two if you don’t see one from me within the next month^^

Anon 2: There was actually a lot of messages like this, but I just chose this one to avoid making this too long.  Please forgive me if yours wasn’t chosen, i did read it and i really appreciate it!! I /was/ really shocked when I saw my drawings on the screen — I sent them in just for fun and I never imagined they would get picked! It’s just an overwhelming honor for me and I’m super grateful to the staff for picking mine:’)

Anon 3: manapia.deviantart.com  — pretty much all my accounts are manapia, except for twitter and weibo.  (also, this is linked on my tumblr page! along with my ask.fm and the FAQ; you guys might wanna check out my FAQ before asking me stuff)

Anon 5: Oh hohohoho, no.  People seem to think that I’m at where I am today without any effort, but that’s a huge misconception (though i wish it were true;;;;) I’ve been drawing every single day for the past year (and a bit more), and that’s how i’ve gotten better.  I’ve always liked art and drawing since I was little, because my family is really artistic, but it’s only since I got into Exo that I /really/ started to draw.  I began drawing people around 3~4 years ago, but they were really terrible sketches.  Now I can’t seem to go more than a day without drawing something, it’s kind of an addiction^^;;;

Celebratory drawing because i’m finally done with school!!:)

this is a lq screenshot but here’s my art and exo on the same screen!!! i’m still a bit incoherent but i’m super thankful for after school club for choosing my art!!!

This is for Char (midnighttofu) because i finally plucked up the nerve to talk to her^^;;;;;

sehun preview!